When it Rains, it Pours!

So it seems as though all the bad news all comes at once. If it isn't one thing it is another... All in one day I got a letter saying that they are going to take insurance out of my check for my daughter and my child support and then my student loan. It makes me crazy because I wasn't even behind I am current. They decided to take an extra 28 a month for back child support that I don't even owe. It seems like when you think things can't get any worse you realize the storm has just begun!

Things always seem to work themselves out! Things are getting better! Brianna will be here next week and then in June we are all going to Maine for my baby sister's graduation! I can't wait! Other than that I am working and still loving it and still battling with losing weight. I think I am going to join a gym and just start going everyday I work!

I joined the softball team at work and I guess I am going to face my fears and play!

So things have been so crazy lately. I have been working so much! I went and applied for my passport! I want to go some where cool. Other than that Austin has been driving me crazy! They won't medicate him and I don't know what else to do with him! He won't listen and he is hateful and angry and I just don't know what else to do with him. As I sit here writing watching Matt Girard sing as he was just voted off, and then the judges save him, I was about to cry!!! Well he lives on to sing another week! I guess I am going to bed I have to get up early for work tomorrow!

Hypocrites!!!

It seems that more and more these days, people are becoming more and more hypocritical. I mean don't tell me I can't do something and then turn around and do the exact same thing and say that there is nothing wrong with it. Why do we allow others to bring DRAMA into our lives? Allowing someone to send obscene text and emails and say things like I love you and I miss you. That is not just a friendship and she has made it really clear that she wants to be with him and yet she tries to destroy our marriage and all he can say is, it will pass. Get rid of the drama, take out the trash!!! Say one thing do another. How am I supposed to feel like the only one when he talks to people that bring drama into our lives! ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. So do what you say and say what you mean!!!

This last Week

So Sunday I flew down to Dallas to do my ramp training. I got in like 10 am Sunday morning and class was not until Monday. I checked into my hotel and slept for like 3 hours and then walked over to walmart, quite a walk. I felt bad I didn't know anyone that was going to be in my class so I was so bored.

Monday I took a shuttle to the airport for class and then met some of the people that were in my class. It was cool. After class we went back to the hotel and went to happy hour and had our 3 free drinks. I don't drink very often so wow I was buzzed. Then a few of us decided to go to Chili's and drink some more!!! wow!!!

Tuesday was like any other day until we got back to the hotel and guess what I lost me stupid purse!!! I went from great to stressed in like 2 seconds and made the best of the time left with no money!!!

I got home Weds night and to my surprise was a message from my bank with a phone number. I called it and the guy who had found my purse was still in Dallas and everything was still in it so I picked it up when I got back to Dallas today!!!

Picking up and getting back into the routine of things!!!

Well it has been quite awhile, I guess almost a year since I had a job and man it is nice to get away from the kids and it is sad that I miss work and go crazy with the boys fighting all day. I hate it cause at night when I lay down I can't sleep but yet I am so tired all day long and it is not that I am not used to it, I have to take the boys to school. I just have issues. I am going to the doctor tomorrow.

It 's out in the open

Man do I feel so much better getting all that out! I wrote a message to Kari (Chuck's X) telling her exactly what I think of her needless to say I am done with her and all of her DRAMA!!! Good for me, I am tired of being nice to her and her stabbing me in the back. I am done with all the things that bring me down!!! Here is what I wrote to her:

It is kinda funny that you call me the bitch! We would not have had to come up there and help Michelle had you not lied about everything being dropped and saying that you took care of it. As for calling my husband when you are drunk and saying bullshit to him. If his kids didn't care why did Aly call him on Valentines? And why does Chaise talk so much shit about you behind ur back? Probally because he is just like you. You talk about what a good mom you are, How many houses have you had that you weren't living with someone else? How many times were you in and out of jail... Yeah and you are so perfect, maybe in your dreams!!! I have lost all respect for you and personally I don't care what you think about me, I am happy as is Chuck so stay the fuck out of our lives, he has already asked me to change his phone number if you don't quit calling him start shit when you are drunk and if that happens all of you will get a house number and can leave a message. We have tried to help you and Chaise out and yet you both just keep fucking us over. Remeber the rodeo and all the damage? all the past due payment? Remember the mustang? all the past due payments? all the damage? Now Chaise. Yeah you sure taught him how to be responsable, he just expects every one to do everything for him, well news flash he is an adult and I guess maybe he will learn the hard way. At least Aly has shown that no matter what she can take care of herself and that must come form her dad!!! As for you and all your drunken drama, we can do with out it, why don't you go back to jail so we can have some peace, GOD it was nice while you were in there no DRAMA!!! You can let Chaise know if he needs to tell his dad something to call him hisself cause in 5 days Chucks number is changing and I will make sure you get the house number. Oh and by the way Chaise was givin several options to take care of his phone bill and didn't so yeah I shut it off. He is on the lease here and I do plan on taking him to court, he is resonsible for a 1/3 of the rent and maybe he should have thought about that when he signed the lease and then decided to be lazy and play xbox all day instead of looking for a job. I am done now and you know where I stand so be prepared to be getting the house number around the 20th.peace out and a nice drama filled life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Feels good to just say what I think for a change!!!!

Me being nosey and my opinion

Well I am not going to mention any names in this outta respect. I find myself looking at someones myspace page and thinking to myself wow. How does one go from married to single in a matter of days? I mean, well I guess she is single not because of a divorce but still he has not been gone very long and yet there is still talk of moving on and dating again. If I hadn't known she had a myspace then I would've never know she was his wife. I guess on there it says things about going through a rough time and all but she has never wrote anything about him. He was such an awesome guy and she was so lucky to have him. I guess we all cope with things differently and well I just don't think I would be moving on so soon and advertising it. I guess that is just me though. We were only friends and yet I can not move past it. Not a day goes by that I don't think about all the things we did and said and even his smile. I am still so sad and heartbroken. who am I to judge? It is not my place. It just confuses me so much. Oh well maybe I just need to get over it and worry about what other people are doing.

The first week is over!

Well my first week of training is over! Working at the airport is really fun, watching the planes come in and being right there beside then all I can say is WOW!!! I am excited to see how next week will go and then after that it is off to Dallas for 4 days for my ramp training.

First day at AA

So I started at the airport today. It was a little boring because they didn't have my employee ID number so I couldn't do any of the computer lessons but I did get to watch All about the Benjamins, that is a good movie!!! It always seems overwhelming when you start a new job, but I am sure once I am actually doing it, it won't seem so confusing!!! I didn't sleep so well last night thinking about what all I would be doing today so I came home and got a little nap in.
My poor baby Austin is so sick and I took him to the doctor Friday but he is still running a fever and sleeping alot he just coughs and coughs. Hopefully he will start feeling better soon, if not I will have to call the doctor. I should sleep pretty well tonight!!!

Birthday Parties

OMG I feel like I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off. It is nice that the boys get to go hang out with their friends but seriously I feel like I am running all over the place. I think I am just going to take the evening and stay at home and relax since I start work at the airport in the morning.

New Job

Well I am finally cleared to start work at the airport. All I can say is that it is sbout time!!! I interviewed for the position back in mid Oct. I had shoulder surgery the end of September and so they were waiting for me to heal. Finally I got to do my fingerprints the end of November. The Dec 5 I flew to Dallas for my physical. I had to have all these doctor's releases for medication I am taking. Then they needed more documentation. Finally here it is Feb and I start on Sunday. It took forever to get on so now I am glad that with the economy the way it is I am starting a new job!!!

Death

It is so crazy to think about losing people in your life. I am still having a hard time dealing with Aaron being taken from us. He was just one of the most awesome people I have ever met. He was so real. He could tell you like it was without hurting your feelings. I miss him so much!!! He will never ever be forgotten!!!

On the subject of Death, I think of my dad. I have so many regrets that I never found him sooner, but I thankful to know all of his side of my family. I guess in away it hurts a little less that I didn't know and have to be there and deal with the funeral scene.

Today I went to funeral of this guy that Chuck and I were doing our Bounty Hunting with. Of course it has been like 3 years since we had talked to him. The only reason we kinda cut ties was because he was getting into trouble with the law. We didn't need that. I was shocked to hear that he was stabbed in the chest but at the same time I know how big he thought he was. It is really sad for the family. At least he was trying to change his ways. May he rest in peace.